Hmm.. Didnt blog for abt a week alr. Haix.. Stressed up these few days. Guess what? On tuesday, woah Gabby bought me the house of night series - untamed. i was like Oh.My.God.I just said i wanted to read and he bought me. Hahas. I wanted that book so badly. And now i am finally done with it. waiting for the last book. Damn the Neferet in the book. SHE is such a bitch. Thought wht, Zoey nice to bully? Zzz. I am glad Zoey knew she was wrong but i guess the Vamps in the House Of Night are too attractive that is why she appeared to be flirtish. If is me, i think i will faint. I am still sooo attracted to Erik Night. HAhas. [: Its a nice series ppl, short and interesting. Try it! (:
Okay.. Moving on back to my story. Goodness me, ppl start spreading rumours abt me and Fahmy? Ah hell. We are just best friends okay? -.- starting to get pissed. but heckcare man! Had a hectic week cause of SYF. Danced on tuesday and my left leg gt cramped in the middle of the night then on wed is was sooo damn f-ing pain. >.< Nowadays, I find myself slacking and getting vry distracted. Haix.. i have to be back. Is like 27th April will start Mid-year already! I have to start my intensive mugging period already. i really wanna be in the top few for Os. hrm... OKay.. Then yup. Today is good friday so gonna start doing my homework and mug until late afternoon. Then going shopping with my mum in malaysia. I want new bras!=x ops! Shit okay.. but its the fact. ytd went jp to buy sth so went to see see too. Hahas. ( : and of course! bikini too! (: Going sun tanning in a few weeks i guess? hHas..
Next i think my hp bill is gonecase already. Going to get scolded by my mum again i guess. Haix.. needa control. :/ Hmm then hell, something wrong with my hp's battery. Dying! Gonna get a new one. If not i cant use my hp. )': I wanna text the "music note". i kinda like him already.. haix...I guess only my clique know who i am talking about. Guys... ah hell.. I cant think of them too much already. Getting me really really distracted!its so frustrating! ): GONNA CONCENTRATE ON EXAMINATIONS! MABEL YOU CAN DO IT!!!!!
SFY in 5 days time! Good luckies to everyone in SFY okay? Lets achieve sth after so much shitty training. eek. Wont post that soon till mayb aft exams or wht. and before i go, let you see my exam timetable. its killing me.. >.<
27th April
0800-0945 English Paper 1
1030-1200 History
28th & 29th
Lessons as usual
30th April
1330-1800 Higher Mother Tongue Paper 1 & 2
1st May
Labour day! (:
4th May
0800-0930 Social Studies
1015-1200 Chemistry Paper 2
5th May
0800-1000 Elementary Math Paper 1
1045-1315 Additional Math Paper 2
6th May
0800-1030 Elementary Math Paper 2
7th May
0800-0915 Physics Paper 1
1030-1230 Additional Math Paper 1
8th May
0800-0940 English Paper 2
11th May
VEsak Day holiday
12th May
1045-1200 Biology
1500-1700 Checking of HMT paper at CSS
13th May
0800-0900 Physics paper 1
14th May
0800-0900 Pure Chemistry Paper 1
15th May
Marking Day ( no school )
wait, before i start my mugging, i wanna vent all my feelings out. I cant take it anymore. i dontknow why. i am feeling stress, angry, frustrated and sad. sometimes being a little crazy. i guess all my friends cant stand me any longer. haix.. its like i am bursting! )':i tried to cry out loud, bt i didnt work. no tears even come out. i really need a person who can listen to me.. this is an important year, i dont know why am i acting like that. i might be seen crazy in school, bt in actual fact, i am sad. i feel like killing myself..I hate myself. i just hope i can stop breathing soon.. and i dont know why i am feeling scared... after reading the book, i felt the the demons are so real and scary.. i feel so fcking empty now. haix.. jane, clara, yee shuen and cass. i am so sry if i am really crazy in sch at times. i just wanted to forget all those unhappy stuffs. i am so sry. if you guys cant stand it, just tell me, i will try to stop.. part of me is missing. and its a big part. i really hope you guys can understand me and forgive mefor being so crazy in sch. Also to amani and yingyind and sivam, so sry if i disturbed you guys accidentally cause of being crazy. i will try to stop. will try to... so sry to all my friends...
i think thats all.. i hope god will guide me and accompany me through all these.. ):