Crash!

SHUT UP!

I am breaking down soon.

But i know i cant..

She needs support.

But she is like not trying hard to overcome this thing.

I feel so helpless.

And heartbreaking to see her like that.

And my dreams always come true.

I dreamt that she FAILED her O LEVELS BADLY!

Not that i wanna say.

Is just that i cant see her skipping lessons like that everyday.

I mean its okay to see the councellor once in a while.

But you have to use your own will power to help you.

You are NOT trying thats all i can say.

You want our care and support,

We can give you all you want.

You want our attention, we can give you too.

But you must think, we are not always beside you.

Not 24/7.

Sometimes i really wanna give up on you, i just wanna leave and be selfish.

Just concentrating on my own studies.

Throwing you aside.

But i know i cant do that.

I really seek your cooperative to tell yourself that you can overcome this.

And not to say I AM WEAK. I NEED ATTENTION.

This is NOT gonna help you!

PLEASE.. I BEG YOU.. Before i really leave you alone,

TRY YOUR BEST to PULL YOURSELF UP.

GOD DAMN IT!

i can get really nasty..

i hope before i do, which i dont wish to,

just freaking help yourself.

Okay. so sry abt that. but i needa say it all out cause i cant say it in front of her face.

She cant take it.

OKay..

Today, nt a good day.

The whole sch had this e-learning day at home except for sec 4 and 5.

Like wth..

then i cant run for cross country according to that OLD LADY!

i think this sch is bloody lazy and have uncooperative teachers la.

i mean CSS teacher alr say can, like then what is the thing that dont let me run?!
i know this thing that i am kicking a big fuss out of it is childish,

but i dont wanna have anything left undone for this last yr which i hope to do.

I mean its like i have more confidence this year!

DAMN!

okay i am sooo gonna talk to Mr yeo abt it tmr as i think he doesnt have a single bit of idea what CSS teacher think. cause that OLD LADY nvr tell i think.

I am gonna fight for my stand!

next, Chem SPA postpone! (:

Cause this friday is National Day celebration.

so NO chemistry structured! :D

Tmr having Amath test.

I hope i can pass..

and i am so gonna mug nw.

awaiting for the day to hang out with my FRIEND! :D

hahas. yup. and i wil try to be more optimistic and will try to hang on as long as i can..

thanks peeps for showing care and concern for me..

I appreciate it..

love,

Mabel♥