SAD

Sigh,
its all just a week.
and everything happened.
i thought this time round i was lucky.
but it didnt turn out to be what i expected.
sigh. ):

Maybe is all just me.
but i know in his heart, he still likes her.
how stupid i am right? to give up my happiness.
seriously in my whole life, no one treated me so well before.
i was damn touched and felt pampered.
sigh, but it all didnt work out.

previously was upset about something else.
cried for 2 days and upset for a damn long time.
then when i thought everything was settled, another bomb drop.
wts!
why did she give me that look.
ARGH!
i have been numbing myself.
i really wanna cry for days.
But friends around me cared for me,
and i dont want them to worry + Promos are coming.
in like 3 days.

i seriously dont know what to do.
keep running?
argh and i just requested him not to treat me so well
f. its so painful till i can die.
like taking a knife and stab myself.

sigh i really dont feel like caring.
what a big mistake man mabel.
i cant believe you just let people into your heart so easily.
Maybe i should built a thicker and stronger wall this time.

sigh, i shall wish him all the best here and hope he find his happiness soon.
i suck. and the feelings suck too.

i cant wait for promos to end and i wanna run away.