Okay fine. shall end it here then since you posted it out.
People said you badmouthed about me. Okay and i just let it go cause i really treated you sincerely and i didnt wanna believe. But when we were doing OREPC, sorry i heard it. And as a friend, you should just at least asked where we go. and I was deployed to other counter, is not that i deliberately walked away. But i saw you happily talk to tomio, even tell him that WE left you out when actually the fact is i was deployed to other place..YOu didnt even bother to ask where did we go. During lunch they say go in 5s. and since you were with the rest, happily chatting away of course we dont disturb you. and when i am good to you, i am fuking not acting!
Your secret i kept it all to myself. I didnt even tell Rachael when we were quarelling. And OH PLEASE, the WHINY BITCH! it wasnt even me who said it. and PLEASE you asked people to check on me. Fuck i was damn pissed about that okay?! who the hell check on friends especially when we used to be so close. i trusted you. And you were the one who broke my trust right after you ask Valentine to freaking check on me when i wasnt even talking about you!
I really tried to help you with your sickness. You thought that you are the only one who shed tears for me or did alot for me?! MY GOSH. do you know whatever you say hurt me?! EVERY SINGLE FUCKING WORD YOU SAY! and also ur actions. Do you know it was so hard to even smile to you after all you had done?! but why did i appear okay! cause i thought that we were friends and thats why i tried to freaking cheered up! and you, you just accused me for all you can when you didnt even get to know what had happened?! how you tried to hint me?! why dont you tell me?!
YOu can ask the others, if i had cared for you! I FUCKING DID OKAY?! Race day, i am fucking pissed off. I dont know why the hell are you acting that way. I didnt even leave you out! i tried my best trying to even ask why are you like that! i help you take whistle and you just gave me attitude.! why the hell did you say that you didnt feel welcome. i think you are thinking too much. IF i didnt want you to do, would i even fucking tell you to contact weihao?! for god sake, use your brains!!!!!! And you love running, everyone knows okay?! everyone were shocked that you didnt run!! and you know what, if i really didnt want you to do volunteer, bloody hell, would i even tell the leader that we will be sticking together as a group and let the other volunteers go to other place?!
and you thought you know me well too? no you dont. I know you are those who want just a good friend who can hear you out. Fuck and you dont know that i cant just stick to one? Now i tell you, i am one who cant just stick to one or two friends. Best friends? idk. i treat everyone the same. except those i find annoying or i hate!
when i got left out by you earlier this year, all i did was to try and know more about you guys. i was thick skin even though it was so fucking obvious that to others even no in our class ones knew that you guys hated me!!! i kept going back to my sec sch friends cause i know you guys dont welcome me. but i tried. i fucking tried.!
You can post about me, and why cant i?! i didnt even fucking state your name! whatever it is.
i am just angry with you. cause you didnt even try to clear misunderstandings when you knew problems were coming up! (and when i dint notice) . i admit that i am not those super caring ones. but i do know, i dint treat you badly!
Fuck.
and PS i am not RATHER have many good friends. its good to have many good friends. those who will stand by you. I am not those who will forget old friends. i just wanna tell you, please use correct words. if not, you will FUCKING HURT people!!!!!!