It was suppose to be a fun Christmas in Bangkok.
Flew there on 24th morning. Went to Arnoma hotel and swam. haha. It was super long since the last time i swim. (: then had christmas party at ballroom that night. Freaking gosh! SOME COLLEGE IN LONDON went there for DANCE competition. AND THERE WAS THIS FREAKING CUTE BALLET BOY! ♥ hehe. Then on Christmas, we went on tour together with them! :D OMFG, BEST DAY OF MY LIFE! hahaha. Went shopping at night market, but i couldnt find rings!! D: so i got like cute little cups and cute key chains for my friends. ): hope they dont mind.
Back at hotel, wanted to plan for another night shopping so that i can buy more stuffs and wanted to give a little surprise for my mum cause it was her birthday, but a call came. My dad answered and i heard everything. 11.55am, 5 mins before christmas ends. 5 mins before my mum's birthday. My granduncle passed away. It was too sudden. i was stunned. The last time i saw him was in June when i went back to Malaysia to visit my grandfather. he was there. )': then my mum started crying at 12am sharp. )'': i didnt dare to wish her happy birthday.
Dad ordered tickets to Malaysia for the next day. and so we flew off. Went to grandmother's house to stay. First night of the funeral i didnt go. Cause dad's side cousins came over to grandma's house. then we watched THE CHILD'S EYE 童眼. it was freaking scary at first, but after knowing the background story, it was okay. then watched 小孩。狗 on channel U too. freaking nice. very touching as well.
The next day, i went to the funeral. i didnt dare to see the body. ): but in the end, i went to see. wanted to cry. but i held back. my mum's side cousins were all there too! chat with them while we fold the incense paper! Folded the whole day! both hands were red! then at night. ZOMFG! I TOTALLY CANT IMAGINE WHAT I SAW! 35 tables full of gangsters. those gang heads! freaking gosh. after that then i got to know that my granduncle is one of the gang head too! Some were quite young, a few quite handsome but they were scary! then we went to chant, i kept laughing cause the monk actually spoke in English, cause he thought we dont know chinese.! hahahha bloody hell, then he asked me to stop laughing!
Then it was those gangsters turn to kowtow to my granduncle. OMFG. THEY SANG THOSE BROTHERHOOD SONG. though its all in hokkien, but it was really touching. they actually cried! ): all of us tear cause of that too. i really really admire their brotherhood. REAL gangsters are cool. i guess those other families beside ours were kinda shocked. then that night had to come back to singapore to sleep cause Nat had to attend school for NCC. So this morning, was the day of cremation. ): woke up quite early and went in to malaysia.When we reached, the rest were chanting already. so we joined in.
at around 9.30am. the ritual started. When the monk asked us to go and take a look at my dead granduncle for the last look, i cried. Its always the worst part of the whole funeral. ): then we had to walk a distance barefooted behind the coffin. at that point of time, everyone was crying. i couldnt take it, so i started crying too. My aunt kept shouting for him. ): Even my male cousins cried. The worst part was when the coffin was pushed in. couldnt control my tears. ): I hate cremation. but cause my granduncle lost his wife long ago and hence no offspring. so this is the better way.
Life is so unpredictable. Really hate it when loved ones leave. We have to treasure those beside us. Help one another no matter what. sigh. Bless my granduncle to have a better afterlife.
老四舅！你慢慢走。 我们会永远记得你，你放心地走。 放心地去西边。 愿你下世会更好， 祝福你。
Cant bring him back to life, so all i can do is to chant for him and bless him.
Alright, 2011 is coming. really hate this year alot. Its a year full of regrets. sigh. nothing can be done. i just have to be positive and look forward, working hard to have a better 2011.
Cousins will be coming over to singapore for holiday in a few days time. Looking forward. thats all. i guess i needa nap now. really tired.
P.S I JUST KNEW THAT I HAVE A 4 YEARS OLD, FREAKING CUTE, CHUBBY, WHITE WHITE, HALF JAPANESE COUSIN! TEEHEHEHE. THE WAY HE SPEAKS JAPANESE, OMFG, I JUST CANT STOP SMILING AT HIM! :D CUTE TTM~!