Life is so Unpredictable
heard a news this morning.
Actually wanted to celebrate huihui's birthday.
But sth serious happened..
Rushed to sch,
Heard the news,
and i started crying.
i dont know why i cry so hard.
i really feel sad.
Why?
Life is so unpredictable.
once gone it can never be back.
To that guy: Please be brave, i know you can. i will give you my 100% support.
My mood is so sucky now.
feeling so confused, sad and cant breathe.
friends left me..
i know i am wrong.
i cant do anything alr.
cry? i think its the best way for me to relax. cause i cant be dead.
i think i am kinda screwed up now.
memories keep flowing back to me.
Happy ones, sad ones..
i feel as if my soul is GONE.
no one is in me.
i am just a walking corpse.
i am not brave enough,
i dont want to be brave.
i can only keep running away from situation.
how? its always the important year and things start happening.
When i was in primary 6, i had a damn big illness that almost took my life away.
i hope my life was taken then so i wont be so screwed up right nw,
messing people up.
really.
i hate it.
DAMN!
friendship is like ups and downs,
Coldwar after coldwar.
non-stop.
Relationship, worst!
i mean i messed it all up.
Family. stress!
i mean i wanna do well in Os for my parents of course myself.
what else?
i really hope time would just stop for that moment where i can breathe properly.
i really hope.
feeling sucky.
really sucky....
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