There is sth wrong with blogger again. damn it.

cant post pictures. shit.

anyways, just wanna say i miss everyone.

i miss sec1 and sec2 stress-free life.

i wanna get out of this year.

stress.

k nvr mind..

gonna mug hard and do well for my Os.

Prelims coming up..

gonna try my best.

Take care everyone...

PS: i miss ALL my sisters...

♥ Mabel

Xinli,

please do take care my sis.

Anything can just say out yeah?

Dont bottle it all up. its uncomfortable..

hope to see ya soon! miss ya loads.

Jiayous for the upcoming O levels.

♥ ya.

PROBLEMS

haix. i am back again.

having problems with my best friend.

i didnt really mean to bad mouth you.

i mean cause i dont wanna like shout at you or show you black face.

you dont understand hw i feel.

i knw this hurts you, but sometimes, people have secrets that they dont wanna share.

i mean people can have their own secrets, i am sure you have your own secrets too right.

And to be a best friend doesnt mean EVERY single personal stuffs have to share right.

I mean i can share but i think there are other more important and more meaningful stuffs we cn do.

i really dont know.

i am fine with patching back but its really up to you.

i just wanna let you know that, you are still my best friend.

its weird without talking or joking with you.

i dont know, its up to you.

sorry if i have hurt you.

i mean people make mistakes. i hope you can forgive.

you know me dont you?

you know that i am a girl who will show out if i am not happy or what.

Seriously! i think this shouldnt continue like that.

i really hope this cn end fast..

YOU KNOW ME my FRIEND...

this post is specially for you.

i really care for you.

i didnt know you have that "sickness" thats why i reacted in that way.

cause its really a bit diao when you insult ppl i mean i know you are joking,

but sometimes its a bit too much..

i just hope you understand. and you know i have other problems too.

i am stress.. ok?

hais..

to your bf: i didnt really mean to hurt her. take care of her please. i am nt a good best friend.

Hahas. both pictures taken when i was at the airport last monday. :D

Was eating Apple Crumble from polar. hahas.

Damn nice man! xD

Haven been blogging for a long long time.. haahs

hmm..

The past few days was cool.

Mug mug and mug. :D

LEFT 10 MORE WEEKS to O LEVEL!

and 2 MORE WEEKS TO PRELIMS! =x

i am so looking forward to the end of ALL exams but yet i am scared.

nvr mind. i will try my best! :D

Being really optimistic will help i think! hahah.

Today NO SCHOOL!

cause i dont have to take mt prelim.

Then i just got to know my HMT prelim score from Xuxiang.

LOLS! i PASSED by 2.3marks. xD

hahas. i thought i would fail cause it was really a tough paper.

and i think this is the first time in my whole 4yrs i did so well for paper 1!

i got 58 out of 70 for it. xD

17/20 for letter writing. and 41/50 for compo! :p

Gosh, best score i ever received.

hmm its only paper2 that pulled my marks down. -.-

Nvr mind, i just hope O lvl paper 2 wont be that difficult. xD

I am so gonna watch YEAR ONE man! xD

wanted to watch it since June alr aft watching Land of the Lost.

mayb i will watch it on monday! xD

yup. and i am fasting tgt with my brother! xD

hahas. for fun.

okay i think i will get back mugging! hahas.

ciaoss..

finally i am blogging again.

okay i shall start from MONDAY!

HAPPY 4th MONTH MYAI!

hahas.

i miss ya alot girl! :] Good luck in your exams alright?

just relax and work hard.

YOu cn do it!

Love ya loads! :D

okay then had sch on monday.

was okay.. but tired.

ended school kinda late.

Slept late that night too. ):

Then tuesday!

BLOODY HELL NERVOUS MAN!

Had my ENGLISH O LEVEL ORAL!

argh! i screwed it up! >.<

i said wrongly for the picture and i was sort of like waiting for promt frm the examiners.

luckily the examiners were kind. if nt i will TOTALLY blank out!

then ended ard 4pm.

waited for khai at the canteen.

return Azli his tie.

he looked kinda vexed.

i think he is having problems.

bt i think is better that i dont care about his problem.

i think it will make it worst. :/

But no matter what Azli! just cheer up alright?

Toughest day will be gone!

Support you all the way boy! :D

hmm then went home tgt with khai.

was very tired that day.

On WEDNESDAY!

HAPPY 16th Birthday REMUS! ^^

okay, it was a vry big day for all my friends.

they got back their O lvl mother tongue results.

Gosh!

Yiwen, Aijing, Ray and Yee shuen did bloody well!

and the others too!

Yiyue, Kris: i will support you guys all the way yeah!

i still got to do my hmt as well.

Hate chinese Characters. damn! =x

okay i cried too when they got their results.

BECAUSE they cn retake if they want to.

BUT I CANT! ):

i only had a chance last year and i didnt get my A1!

bloody hell! ):

ARGH! never mind. i shall work on my other subjects then!

MOTIVATION IS ALL I NEED! >.<

okay.. TODAY.

exchanged PE shirt with Yee shuen.

hahas. for fun!

Poor her. Got accused and she cried like hell.

i was really worried that it will affect her.

Dear girl,

dont worry okay? i will support you.

You didnt do it! so dont be afraid.

if they wanna call the police let them be.

THey had no evidences against you.

and so sry to hear that the PREVIOUS police thing wasnt over yet.

dont worry. police wont harm you. they might be fierce but they wont harm you.

i will give my full support for you okay?

DOnt worry girl!

SOME PEOPLE HAVE NO BRAINS!

YOU WASNT THE ONLY ONE THERE AND TEACHER IS YOUR WITNESS.

THERE WERE OTHER SCHOOLS THERE, its NOT ONLY YOU.

ASK THOSE WHO ACCUSE YOU TO FCUK OFF MAN!

DONT CARE THEM, THEY ARE JUST BLIND AND A BUNCH OF FOOLS!

DONT CARE OKAY?

cheer up babe. i will be there for you.. :]

lessons were boring today.

had amath test.

CARELESS mistakes man! urgh damn.

gonna learn from my mistakes.

AND i think i wanna get into ACCOUNTANCY.

my mum is a professional in it.

so yeah..

i think if i nvr get really the aim i want for Os, i will get into NP and try out for buisness courses.

if i get a SINGLE digit, then i might choose SAJC or ACJC.

see how it goes.

hahas.

my personal life...

to my childhood friends in ft:

so sry to say this, bt its kinda serious,

i dont really like untrue stuffs okay?

oKay one thing, i wont like anyone of the guys in ft.

and i think you guys still dont really understand me yet, so yeah..

i am nt flirting. this is me. i am like that in school too.

its up to you guys to believe it or not. i can bitchy at times i admit.

so sry if you guys cant stand it.

it had been long aft i left ft.

so you guys haven understand me yet.

please dont spread rumour.

i dont have any special feelings for A. okay?

so yeah..

secondly,

to him..

i am really upset you send me that msg.

i know i cant force you.

but yeah, i am really sad.

i actually cried.

its hard for me too..

i know i am a vry sucky girl.

i am so sry.

maybe its a better thing for you.

i will try to cope.

its okay...

i will comfort myself. i will still think of you..

sry...

lastly,

i miss my ballet partner, PEARL!

so sad you have to stop for this period of time.

really hope to see you soon.

Good luck for you o levels too okay?

i miss you so much my dear sister...

and thanks for the things in your blog.

love it so much! LOVE YA BABE!

yeah i think thats all.. long post eh?

hahas. gonna have my prelims soon.

mugging period now! argh.

MABEL, YOU CAN DO IT! :]

Self motivate! hahas.

mad girl. :D

okay.. bubby! :]

LAZY.

freak.

okay.. i have been slacking for 2 days.

doing nth.

):

parents nt ard.

on friday,

had my chemistry SPA.

damn sucky! didnt finish my calculations.

fuck. nvr mind.

Then headed home. cause needa take care of my little bro.

i slacked once i reached home.

watched tv all the way till like 10 plus.

make my little bro slp and waited for my friend.

My friend finally came at ard 11 plus.

k then we watched movie tgt till like 3 plus i guess.

Then chat all the way till 6am.

decided to slp..

at ard 7, my little bro wake up.

walao! fucking early lorh.

in the end i slept till only like 8am.

then for the whole day did nth. talked to my friend.

then my friend left ard 6pm!

then the whole day just ended like that.

didnt meet siyao in the end ):

was too tired.

then today.

wanted to do sth!

i did larh.

Household chores lorh.

but still watching tv.

Parents coming home soon i guess.

miss them alot.

gonna study later and i must! >.<

English oral on TUESDAY!

freak.!

okay. my voice like gonna gone soon.

hope wont.

getting sick again. shit!

k nvr mind.

i think thats all.

feeling so moodless now. ):

Confusing...

i am back again..

oh man.

what kind of feeling is that?

Is he ignoring me again? gosh.

did i do something wrong?

and am i having sth for another guy?

i really dont know myself!

Gosh! what the hell is this man?!

i am so gonna distract myself with my books!

O levels!!

took class photo today. i think its kinda fast.

but i am CONFIRM vry ugly in the pic.

i thought i could be standing.

but in the end i sat.

URGH! i am so short. >.<

nevermind.

received my prelim time table alr.

damn sian! i haven start revising! ):

stress..

i NEED TO STUDY! >.<

and i had my higher mother prelim today.

DAMN SUCKY!

its so difficult.

left sch at ard 12.30pm cause paper starts at 1.30pm.

for Paper1 is so damn sian.

i dont have the mood to freaking write out a compo.

idiot!

Paper 2. worst.

the first passage was okay, then

the others i dont even UNDERSTAND!

what the hell.. but i didnt leave it blank.

shit!

nvr mind. its over.

ANd i cant freaking hell run for cross country!

fuck! i hate Mr. *** and Mrs.***

they are so LAZY!

GO return paper SOOO DIFFICULT MEH?!

FUCK! DAMN.

i feel like slapping them.

LAME EXCUSES!

MY FUCKING SCHOOL,BLOODY SUCKS!

I AM SO GONNA GRADUATE SOON!

CANT WAIT!

FUCK THAT BLOODY SCHOOL UPSIDE DOWN!

DAMN IT!

hais! i dont have the mood!

shit ass!

relationship is so complicated.

it sucks!

i hate the feeling of being stuck!

Fcuk.

not again..

FUCK! FUCK! FUCK! FUCK!

sucks man! :/

FUN!

hahas. back from camp yesterday.

it was super fun larh.

i nearly lost my voice.

Still sick today. then fever come back nw.

tsk tsk.

okay. let me blog abt my camp. :D

DAY 1 9th august.

Woke up at 6plus then prepared to go to the campsite.

in the end 8am then gt out of hse.

Went to fetch Jieyou at pioneer station then headed for the campsite.

Xinli and Zijing alr there. i think others there too alr bah.

forgotten lols.

then we waited for everyone in our 'clique'.

We clog in at ard 9am and then went to our bunk.

The bunk was so clean larh. :D got bed somemore.

hahas.

then meiting, meiyi, xinli, zijing, rouying and i slacked on the bed.

Was kinda tired.

But in the end decided to go meet up with the guys.

Then we chit chated under bunk 3. :D

assembled at ard 1pm.

then played ice breakers till 3 plus. quite lame larh.

but still okay. we split into groups. was really fun.

Made a new friend called Miki. :D

Then aft ice breakers, we had this competition where we had to prepare our own dinner.

Cool uh? hahas. then in the end there is this stupid lizard that made me scream.

Damn! >.<

We played while preparing. hahas.

Then ended at 5 plus. Ate dinner at 6 plus.

Sat with Jintai, meiting and meiyi.

LOL! so funny lurh. xD

but i cant finish my food. in the end gave my dad.

Then ard 7pm. had campfire.

was actually quite boring at first. but

Meiting, Meiyi, JinXian, Xinli, Me, My brother and Rouying high tgt.

hahas.:D

We go shouting abt and jumping ard.

We call ourselves the Spartan~ hahas.

damn cool and funny.

Then at ard 8pm we ended the campfire. :D

said the pledge tgt at 8.22pm like that. hahas.

ALL OF US in the camp lorh.

Then our whole group use SHOUT one. ahahs.

then we started singing national day songs. hahas.

so fun! xD

After that, ard 9 plus. watched this video.

Title called " pass it on" i think.

Was soo touching..

cried when the video ended. lols.

then we had this candlelight ceremony thing.

But stupid, the was out of a sudden spilled out and drip on my hand.

walao, damn pain lorh.

in the end burnt. i think got scar lurh. ):

Then ended the whole day 1 at ard 11 plus.

went up to bunk to bathe. :D

shiok sia cold water. ahahs.

then we met up with the guys at ard 12am.

Ate supper! :D i love the bun man!

Jintai and I keep taking and eat lorh.

So nice to chew.hahas.

Then aft that, meiting and meiyi went to slp.

the others, we ton.

Shiok. Watched them play poker.

Then changed to heart attack. but cause that game too noisy.

So we changed to truth or dare.

WALAO! jintai SUAY uh. hahas. must go smell Jianting's armpit! hahah

hahahhahahah! xD

Then in the end. i kena dare.

Walao, luckily Xinli's dad came and ask us go back slp.

then my dare dont needa do! :D

it was ard 3am at that time.

Went back to bed with Xinli and then i msg Jinxian.

but before he reply i slept lurh. lols.

DAY2 10th august

wth! my alarm rang at 5plus.

Xinli woke me up to off it. lols.

then return to slp.

woke up at 6.45am like that.

Walao damn tired.

but bo bian.

So went to wash up and tie my hair.

Went to assemble at 7.30am like that. Did morning exercise.

Lame lorh! lols.

Then had this lesson thingy for 3 hours.

Sat beside jinxian.

Stupid larh he. then we played and i keep hitting him! hahas xD

but he hit me back. -.-

Damn pain lorh! ..

Then ard 12 plus. we had lunch.

i continued my dare. sian.

they ask me go up to someone and say i love you.

-.-" !

but i went la cause i am nt a coward. lols.

wanted to continue playing de. bt in the end they dont want.

then slacked lorh.

My brother go kp me. use ball and hit my head.

wtf larh. i damn bu shuang. in the end, i just diam diam cause dont wanna quarrel there.

hmm then played games aft lunch.

10 stations all tgt. damn fun larh.

Jinxian's grp always beside me de. Then he always go hit my arm when walk pass. stupid sia. lols

Then i sort of lead my grp.

then at ard 4 plus in the afternoon, we ended all 10 games.

Then we camwhore! :D hahas.

we did jump shot! :D

i love my grp man! ahas .

then during short break before we assemble, pur whole clique took grp photo! :D so fun lurh lorh! :D

aft that, we watched our '2days-journey' video.

was so funny lurh. xD

then sang songs.. jinxian damn lame lurh. hitting me as usual.

siao siao! lols.

then ard 6pm the camp ended.

wanted to eat dinner tgt with them, but my parents dunno kan chiong for what.

so we headed home. sad ):

cant bear to leave lorh..

journey ended...

Thoughts.

gosh! i miss the camp so much. ):

esp.. campfire and the lesson time where i played with jinxian.

so funny lurh. and of course,

Jianwei had a new nick! called..

BALLOON! hahas.

hmm.. really wonder when can all meet up again.

so gonna have camp with them again.

All my childhood friends. love them alot! xD

but today slept for 3hours in class.

damn hiong. first time slept for so long!

ahhas. so tired nw. luckily tmr starting sch late.

(: gonna slp early today i guess. hahaas. :D

hmm going to mug nw. sian sian lurh. ahahs.

some photos wil be posted next time. xD

ahahs .

for nw, ciaoss..

MISS ALL MY CHILDHOOD FRIENDS!

and the memorable times we had tgt. :D

2 days off!

i am going off for camp! :D

so yea! luckily my fever subsided.

but still haivng flu and cough. ):

And i wanna say:

HAPPY 16th BIRTHDAY TO YEE SHUEN!

LOVE YA BABE! :D

ciaoss!

sick!

NUMB!

i think there is sth wrong with me and her alr..

not so close anymore.

wondering if she is still angry with me or what.

Whatever larh! ZZZ..

OK.

I am FINALLY SICK! :D

hahas. Having high fever since yesterday.

But not sure if i can still go for the camp. ):

Hope i can.

Hmm.. Ytd was okay. Just that i had blisters after PE. >.<

Then had prelim for Chem SPA.

Suck man. i didnt know how to do.

Then had Amath test.

Trigo. :D

The paper was okay for me. i can do most of the questions.

Hmm.. Then went home with my legs and arms aching. =x

Was kinda excited about today. also dont know why. haha..

NATIONAL DAY CELEBRATION!

total CRAP! ><

is like all of us stay in the class for 3 hours?!

so lame! i was waiting for like national day songs. But nth came out.

But watch the video "Kallang Roar".

Was damn nice! :D

All of us like really watching soccer match like that.

My class was damn enthu larh! hahas.

When Singapore score a goal in that video, all of us cheered!

LOLS! then after that video,

Mrs chuah let us watch funny videos~

Hahas. Those Japanese Game Shows.

Laughed like shit! xD

Celebration end at 10am.

Damn shiok. so went to buy bubble tea with Cass and Yee Shuen.

Hmm aft that they left cause they cant stay.

So i went to MY FRIEND's house.

I LOVE THOSE CATS.

i think i will buy one in Malaysia to replace my dog! hahas.

Hmm then we slacked till 12 plus and then i went home cause my mum came to fetch me. -.-

But was having fever all the while.

Weird this time.

i am nt feeling cold.

instead i feel warm. keep sweating.

Then have sore throat.

Maybe got H1N1. xD hahas.

Cause both my brothers have fever too! :p

See how it goes bah..

Then got home at ard 1 plus.

Bathed and then went to sleep till 6pm like that. LOLS

longest time i ever slept recently! hahas.

Then ate dinner and went out to buy my stationeries.

got home and till now.

I am really happy today cause i went to MY FRIEND's house. :D

Will hang out again next week! hahas. :D LOOKING FORWARD.

okay.. now my feelings..

not vry sure why, i think mayb he is keeping a distance as i wanted.

mayb thats good.

But i am waiting for like messages everytime..

i dont wanna think about it but keep popping out. ):

Maybe i will just let my heart open for now...

but i am still waiting...

Love,

Mabel ♥

Sistership! :D

XINLI & ZIJING!♥

Happy 2nd month lurh! :D

Love you guys alot and really miss you all.

Excited about the camp we are gonna have together this coming Sunday!

can you believe it?

Its so bloody fast.

Hahas.

Think we wont be sleeping like what we did in KL in June i think!

Hahas. :D

K babes, see ya guys soonest! (:

Loves,

Mabel♥

maybe i asked for too much..

i just wanna have vry simple life.

But it turns out to be the other way round.

Sometimes i just wish to be knock down by a car.

so that all things will come to an end.

Reality is cruel.

Thats all i can say.

But i dont wanna face reality..

i am afraid..

and i think my feelings are all back.

it is so bloody hard for me.

how?

D: i wanna cry..

i wanna shout.

i wanna scream.

All i can!

i wanna say goodbye...

Crash!

SHUT UP!

I am breaking down soon.

But i know i cant..

She needs support.

But she is like not trying hard to overcome this thing.

I feel so helpless.

And heartbreaking to see her like that.

And my dreams always come true.

I dreamt that she FAILED her O LEVELS BADLY!

Not that i wanna say.

Is just that i cant see her skipping lessons like that everyday.

I mean its okay to see the councellor once in a while.

But you have to use your own will power to help you.

You are NOT trying thats all i can say.

You want our care and support,

We can give you all you want.

You want our attention, we can give you too.

But you must think, we are not always beside you.

Not 24/7.

Sometimes i really wanna give up on you, i just wanna leave and be selfish.

Just concentrating on my own studies.

Throwing you aside.

But i know i cant do that.

I really seek your cooperative to tell yourself that you can overcome this.

And not to say I AM WEAK. I NEED ATTENTION.

This is NOT gonna help you!

PLEASE.. I BEG YOU.. Before i really leave you alone,

TRY YOUR BEST to PULL YOURSELF UP.

GOD DAMN IT!

i can get really nasty..

i hope before i do, which i dont wish to,

just freaking help yourself.

Okay. so sry abt that. but i needa say it all out cause i cant say it in front of her face.

She cant take it.

OKay..

Today, nt a good day.

The whole sch had this e-learning day at home except for sec 4 and 5.

Like wth..

then i cant run for cross country according to that OLD LADY!

i think this sch is bloody lazy and have uncooperative teachers la.

i mean CSS teacher alr say can, like then what is the thing that dont let me run?!
i know this thing that i am kicking a big fuss out of it is childish,

but i dont wanna have anything left undone for this last yr which i hope to do.

I mean its like i have more confidence this year!

DAMN!

okay i am sooo gonna talk to Mr yeo abt it tmr as i think he doesnt have a single bit of idea what CSS teacher think. cause that OLD LADY nvr tell i think.

I am gonna fight for my stand!

next, Chem SPA postpone! (:

Cause this friday is National Day celebration.

so NO chemistry structured! :D

Tmr having Amath test.

I hope i can pass..

and i am so gonna mug nw.

awaiting for the day to hang out with my FRIEND! :D

hahas. yup. and i wil try to be more optimistic and will try to hang on as long as i can..

thanks peeps for showing care and concern for me..

I appreciate it..

love,

Mabel♥

Cant do it.

how? what am i suppose to do?

I am worried for 2 of my friends.

i am afraid that they cant take it.

esp that guy..

I mean i know he is sad, he is trying nt to show out.

But i rather he cry out than keeping it in his heart.

this is the worst scenario ever!

i am afraid that my world will crash before they really breakdown.

who am i suppose to tell?

what am i suppose to do?

they need support, i gave them 100%.

but they seemed to be rejecting.

it hurts to see them this way.

O levels are coming..

They cant just let this affect the exam..

I will try my best to help them pull through this.

I will and i must.

its my duty as a best friend of theirs..

Lord,

please help me too..

i really need a support and someone who is willing to walk with me to help them.

esp for that guy,

dont get the wrong idea that i have a crush on you.

i am just doing what i can.

the rest you have to open your heart to accept the fact.

i know you alr did,

bt its nt enough.

you are hating others and yourself.

You cant do this.

please promise this you will pull through.

The last thing i wanna see is my best friends' world crashing..

Just another day.

BLESSED BE♥

How shall i start for today? Hmm..

Feeling kinda happy today. :D

Early in the morning, wanted to meet Ying they all at huayi,

but i woke up kinda late.

So i tok 99 to Parc Oasis bus stop.

Yiwen and siblings were also taking 99. :D

Such a coincidence.

But after like 2 sms to her, then i know that she was on the 99 behind mine.

So we met at the bus stop and took 333 to school.

Then had normal lessons.

Clara wasnt in school today.

She needed a little more rest and will be coming back tmr.

Zzz. E-learning day tmr! only for sec 1 to sec3!

Kena sai!!! >.<

where gt like that one. damn.

then was math, somebody came to our class and said sth.

I was really pissed. but aft talking to Jane, Amanda, Ying and Farrell, gt a little better.

OKay then WE FINALLY HAVE ASSEMBLY!

OH MY GOSH!

i missed assembly alot. even though its nt really the proper one.

Only some Ngee Ann Poly ppl came for promoting courses.

Was bloody funny larh the whole session.

Walao eh, i laughed for like practically the WHOLE hour with Ying! LOLS...

yup then ended school at 2.30pm and went for HMT with Jiaying & Yongyun.

The best thing is i just have to 'beg' Mrs Wee and i can have my

CROSS COUNTRY!!!:D

damn bloody happy lurh larh! hahas.. YUps!

Aiming for top3 at least.. lols..

Hmm.. i think thats all. just reached home not long ago.. Tired.

Oh and my poor brother having high fever for 3 days lurh..

Temp keep nvr go down. i think he aint going to sch this whole week!

SHIOK sia! if its me then good =x.

And lastly, the LONG AWAITED CAMP is this SUNDAY!!

ARGH! XINLI: I AM SO FCUKING EXCITED!! xD CANT WAIT!

hahas. yup yup! :D

PS. i am talking back with him again.. i am controlling cause i dont wanna hurt people.

its really hard for me, bt i have to do in this way. like i mean you have a girlfriend too.

its not good to just enter like that. plus, i think mayb friends would last longer than you know.

i am really looking forward to the day we can talk back like before! :D do take care ya?

Hahas. i think thats about it! and wanna say ALL THE BEST who are taking their N level prelims! :D

lovies,

Mabel ♥

HAPPY 5th MONTH PHOEBE! ♥

I Love ya so much man! and miss you alot too.

WOndering when can i meet you again.. Hmm.

Next time after Os i will cfm hang out with you! and its a MUST :D

hahas. so sry like sometimes didnt reply your messages or reply it late cause i am busy with my work. yup. hope you understand!

I love ya strawberry sister! and i want that hellokitty set too! ):

Who can get it for me? Anyone?

hahas.

See ya soon alright?

love,

Mabel♥

Tears fall..

TEARS.

First of all i wanna thank Myai for telling me abt this blogger error thing.

It really works. Thanks babe! :D

And life have to move on..

Secondly, Wanna say HAPPY 5th MONTH to PHOEBE! :D

love ya so much and i really wanna meet up with you.

Its kinda hard cause busy with school.

Yup.. Miss ya loads okay?

Thirdly, Pearl, What happened? i cant get into your blog. ):

Tell me abt it asap okay? realy sad that you cant come for class alr. ):

Then left me, rach. limin and Crystal. ):

Hmm.. yup..

okay. Today went to sch with yiwen they all.

God hahas. i was freaking early today okay? hahas.

then i went to buy 2 bread. :D

80 cents each only.

WTF man! the oreo with cheese was nice! i am so gonna buy it again tmr!

Hmm. Then went to sch.

Saw Clara's mum at first.

i was kinda shocked.

then saw clara. Even more shocked.

she look like some pufferfish.

Gosh, i think she is STRESS.

to clara: dont worry okay? we all will always be by your side.

dont think too much..

Yup then in the end she went home cause she totally cant take it.

Hmm. Rest well babe.

Then was really tired throughout the day.

Gosh, i turned and saw him during recess. ):

after knowing the reason, i am real sad.

What i meant that i feel like i was Zoey is nt say that you are nt important.

Its jus that suddenly alot of guys, and i was just confused and didnt wanna face the reality.

Not that i wanna throw you around.

But i think forget it.. i am giving up.

There is no use since he alr had a loving gf and i am jus nth.

i will ACCEPT the fact and move on with my life. ):

Just hope that you will be fine and do well for your studies and your stuffs..

Hais. i think thats about all. I am so glad i am talking back with my friend. i hope we can talk like that forever okay? hope... :D

What the hell.
There is really sth wrong with the bloody blogger.
Cant change fonts! eek! >.<

okay nvr mind..
content more important.
Went to the funeral ytd night with Sherman.
Cause they were having service, so i chat with Sherman for like almost an hour.
But my brother dont know ate what, all of a sudden become sick then start puking.
Tsk, i think he didnt eat or what. but he was better today.
Hmm then went home at ard 10pm cause needa bring him home.
Then was really tired.
But couldnt sleep. Keep thinking about stuffs. ):
Then in the end, i realised that i was crying..
Sounds like depression right? lol.
Haix. Seriously i think i need a mental doc with me.
then i cried till tired then slept. Dont know what time.

Woke up at ard 8.15am today.
Checked my phone. Yee shuen text me ask for address.
I also dont know so i ask her to ask Jane. In the end, Jane ask her to ask me. -.-
Funny lurh. So in the end i ask MY FRIEND directly for his address.
It was the last day of the funeral.):
i was really sad. i went for piano, but didnt have the mood to play. Was waiting for time to pass.
Then went there at ard 10am.
He looks okay, but i know he is forcing himself to look okay.
then nt long after, we have to sing the songs then walk round the coffin to look at the deceased for the last time.
It was really sad. I controlled so that i wont cry. Yee Shuen also like gonna cry like that.
Then at ard 10.45am, we headed for the crematory at Mandai.
Gosh, when i see the deceased's sister keep asking her when will they meet again,
i totally cant take it. I cried out.. heartache..
Then took the bus there.
The pastor like say alot. i am not a christian so i dont know what is the thing called.
Some parts i heard lurh really cant tahan so cried out.
I see MY FRIEND like trying not to cry out, trying to hold back like vry brave.
i cry even harder. Sad for him. really sad.
Then next went to the viewing hall.
Gosh thats the worst part.
everyone was crying hard. i was crying too. ): see the coffin moved into the place.
i was thinking what if one day its my relative that pass away, i dont know how will i look like.
i think i would be crying 24hr.
so in all i cried for one whole week alr.. hais.
Then ard 12 plus. took bus back. Met Yee shuen there. she should have just come with us lorh so that i could cry with her cause Jane they all even though sad also wont cry.
i cry alone very weird.
Hmm then got home at ard 2pm. was really tired, so slept.
Woke up at 3.30pm. Then dad send me to tuition. was vry tired and having headache.
then after that came home, dinner and use com till now.
I feel like going out now! :(

Hais.. somebody told me the reason he ignore me.
Maybe i am really that bad. i am the wicked one.
Going ard messing up ppl's life.
To that guy : really sry. its a wise choice to ignore me i guess even though i feel hurt.
nvr mind then. i dont want to hurt you either. enjoy with your gf now.. dont look at me. there is dont need to..

Hais. i am such a failure. gosh i really dont knw what to do and how to react. ):
How? i still have the feelings i guess. its all coming back. but i dont wanna hurt anyone. so i guess its better to keep a distance. yeah.
Hais. i think thats all for today. totally no mood any more..
gonna cry again i think...