i am feeling real sad now.
real real sad,
i am jealous too.
what the hell is wrong with me?
hate myself like that. ):
i wanna cry.
i need a hug.
i need someone to console me.
cant take it anymore... ):

shall go bathe in cold water.
i need to numb myself.
need to focus after bathing.

freak...
this is killing me.
and i am dying off.
cant take it...........