I really dont know what to do.
Its like dooms day for me today.
HOW?!
I feel damn disappointed with myself.
I should have worked harder for MYE.
I am really praying very hard for miracle to happen now. ):
What if i retain?
continue JC? or POLY?
if JC, should i change college? since i am shifting.
Urgh.
i am damn upset.
cried in school today.
i cant imagine myself retaining.
leaving missyella and rachael.
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they are for sure going to promote.
i dont know what to do.
its like i wanna promote with my friends.
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sigh.
went to gym with missyella, kavin, weihao and yongjun.
Ran for 45mins.
i almost fainted.
i was running non stop at a speed of 8.7km/hr.
at like 35mins i can feel myself dying.
but i didnt wanna stop.
i needa destress.
i was damn sad.
like really very sad.
so i continue running.
after coming down from the treadmill,the whole gym was like spinning.
missyella said that she can see that i was pushing myself.
i seriously feel like dying.
this is my first time experiencing this.
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i have no one to talk to, as in say out how i really feel.
i wanted to tell missyella and rachael, but it was too difficult to say.
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i really cant think of anyone to talk to.
i have let my parents and myself down.
wtf.
i feel like running under the hot sun tmr again.
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@6 plus went to eat with kavin and weihao and lala.
@7 went ten mile junction to buy Mr Bean's ice cream with lala.
at that point of time i was thinking,
shit this will only happened till the year end,
and if i retain,
i wont be able to enjoy so much time with them anymore.
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i know i can have new friends, but i dont wanna leave my real friends this year.
sighs.
reached home at 8+
i am like damn tired now.
what am i gonna do tmr?
i hope i can pass my other subjects.
so that i can have a higher chance of promoting.
please god,
do let my efforts pay off.
i studied damn hard. ):
*sobs*
oh and he apologized.
i didnt expect that.
i dont really know how to react.
lala was beside me just now.
i have given up like 2 days ago.
cause of the drama and i think its not worth it.
whatever it is,
wish you all the best.
i will try my best and befriends with you again.
somehow i cant wait for NIKE run next week.
shall watch Playful Kiss ep13 later.
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thanks for all that were supporting me.
love you guys.