It was dooms day for me last Thursday and Friday.
I cried damn badly after knowing my results.
i seriously worked hard for Promos.
i really tried my best.
why did it turn out that way?!
i am damn hell sad. ):

I know it was my Mid years.
i should have work harder for mye since it was easy.
why didnt i?! !
I WANNA PUT A FULL BLAME ON THAT STUPID IDIOT.

WHY DID I EVEN SPEND MY WHOLE JUNE HOLS WITH HIM! DAMN.
sheesh.
i know i am at fault.
but i really think if he doesnt appear, i would have done better.
i regretted like f.
SHIT.

Friday i really broke down.
)':
i wanted to just jump out from the corridor.
i think i would if lala wasnt sitting beside me.

Its like the whole world falling.
i know its dumb of me to do that.
but its the first time i failed so badly.
to an extent that i will retain.
fml.

i like wasted my parents money.
i disappointed them.
i hate myself.
then i texted mum and dad.
the reply they gave me made me cry even more.

They said, "its okay girl. (: you know where went wrong. dont worry."

i cried damn hell hard after seeing that.
wts.
why didnt i work hard?!

then after that.
i went and have a walk with missyella.
heart to heart talked to her.
it really made me felt better.
thank you so much my bestie.

Rachael and Missyella,
you guys know actually i cried because i cant accept the fact that i wont be with you all next year?
i am damn upset.
its like how on earth am i gonna survive in school without you two.
i know i hated you guys to the core last time.
but i love you all now.
i am damn hell sad now.
i seriously dont know what to do.
):
so for now,
i will just enjoy as much as i can with you two.!

as for now,
i shall just focus on PW since i dont have chinese to worry.
and yeah.
aim to achieve an A for PW.
hwaiting.
i can do it.